By JACKSON BIKO
In Summary
- We quickly settled into a long interesting conversation about gender. Turned out I didn’t need a helmet after all.
Breakfast, Java Valley Arcade. Wintry morning.
I’m sitting with Laiman Bidali, founder of Alabastron Network Trust.
She’s not as fierce and scary as I had anticipated. (Wanted to wear a
helmet for the interview).
Laiman founded Alabastron eight years ago for women who
are “restless for transition” and want to move from the comfort zone to a
greater zone.
The public view of Alabastron is polarised;
there never seems to be fence sitters. Over 5,000 women have since gone
through the programme and she has reached 14,000 more via her live
events and millions via her Unspoken TV programme.
We quickly settled into a long interesting conversation about gender. Turned out I didn’t need a helmet after all.
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What sparked Alabastron?
I was a management consultant before this and this
day in 2001 I was doing a leadership development programme for career
women, directors and CEOs. They all had that dead-cat fish look, these
successful women. So I had them to start talking about their lives, I
asked them to talk about what destroys the self-esteem of a woman in
leadership. That’s when I saw the room changing. I saw the women relax,
remove their shoes and all. They started talking about these things that
were really affecting their self-esteem and just like that I got an
idea for Alabastron.
Where did you grow up?
My parents have a home in Kikuyu although my early
childhood years were in Riruta – then we moved to Kikuyu. I went to
Riruta Primary School, Kagwe Girls High School in Kiambu and then
University of Nairobi to do a Bachelor’s degree in Anthropology.
Are you surprised by the reaction of some men when it comes to Alabastron?
I’m not. I’m not actually surprised because they’re
coming from a space of fear. The moment they hear women empowerment,
they think, “She’s going to grow horns, she’ll start wearing pants in
the house, she’ll start controlling me – telling me what to do…” That’s
what they think because that’s how women empowerment unfortunately was
packaged.
Men get scared when they hear that their women are
going to get empowered because what they view is a woman who is
controlling, hostile and aggressive and you can’t tell her anything. But
I said, “If I start trying to assure the men, we will lose our focus.
What we need to do is to do more of what we’re doing.”
Do you think a man is or even should be the head of the family?
I think so.
What does being “the head” mean to you?
I believe that there has to be someone who offers
guidance. As an institution you need someone who is accountable and who
takes the final decision and takes responsibility for it. But thinking
the man is the head of the house for the sake of it without
understanding the responsibility, then it creates men who will not take
into account anybody’s input or idea.
So it’s also for men to understand that every position, if
you’re the head, you have a lot of responsibility from how the children
turn out to whether your family has a vision or not. As a woman I will
not feel devalued as long as my contribution is respected.
Is there a scenario where women will be so empowered, more than their men, and that imbalance becomes a problem?
It’s like asking you Jackson, “Can you be too healthy for your own good”?
Ha. Good one!
You know? There’s nothing like that. What has been
misconstrued to be over-empowerment is when somebody is using what they
know to discredit others, to make people feel lesser, to instil fear
either in the children or in husbands as well, to suppress. So there’s
nothing like over-empowerment.
Do you think we, Kenyan men, have a problem?
(Pause) I think Kenyan men in general are… What
shall I say? They have got their challenges. Especially on how to deal
with and handle women.
By the way, you can be blunt with me. Here we don’t do politically correct things...
We have men today who are caught up between being
modern and well exposed and also being the way they saw their father
treating the mum or their uncles treating their aunties. So, they need
help. They need help to be able to understand us. They need help in
being able to get the best out of partnerships, because these are
partnerships. If in a partnership you’re always trying to suppress one
party, there will be no fruitfulness.
Do you think what you’re trying to do will
be fruitless when you’re empowering women and nobody is talking to the
men, or making them understand this journey women are embarking on? I
mean women don’t live in a vacuum.
I don’t think so. I don’t think it’s a problem, but
I think that it is important that both men and women are equipped on
how to do life. For you as a man to know, “How do I optimise my
potential? How do I become more of who I am and not be apologetic about
it?” I think that’s important. Men have their fears and insecurities.
As a woman I cannot stunt my growth and my progress
because my significant other is not growing or progressing at the same
level. Because who’s going to help the other when we’re both so
disempowered?
So when I say I’m not going to improve on myself
because this man I’m with is a caveman – he’s not getting it. But at the
same time, I think it’s important that you don’t undermine the power
and the influence of a woman in men’s lives.
There is a space a woman holds in a man’s life that
leaves a lasting impression. You can leave a man so bitter and angry or
very empowered. So I think it’s 100 per cent responsibility. We can
grow separately without growing apart or we can grow together.
“There are just no good women to marry anymore.” Ever heard of that statement
Where do you think it stems from?
I don’t know. You’re the man. Ask me about good
men, I’ll tell you why there are no good men anymore. (Laughs) I don’t
know why men think that, because that must be coming from a man. All I
know is in all this understanding of empowerment, women have lost their
femininity and want to be like men. And I tell women, “Even when you’re
trying to be a man, why are you becoming the nasty men? Why can’t you be
the good version of a guy if you’re trying to be manly?” So I think
there are a lot of women who are broken, women who have been hurt by
their fathers and mothers and by other women and they have baggage.
Ultimately, it’s how you want your relationship to be or to be in.
So how then do we then socialise our sons to be able to be the kind of men you want to relate with girls in future?
I think you cannot give what you don’t have because
children relate more with who you are, than what you’re saying. They’re
observing more and they’re imitating than what you’re telling them to
be. I think number one, we need to realise and acknowledge our
weaknesses and we need to realise some of the habits and patterns that
we keep on repeating that are not making us progressive.
Men need to work on the unhealthy beliefs they have
about women that ‘‘Women are users’’ or ‘‘women are gold diggers’.’ If
women are gold diggers, why have the men themselves not found this
gold that we’re supposed to be digging in them?
You seem solid and confident, but I’m sure you have your weaknesses as a woman, what are they?
One of my weaknesses is that I am very impatient for results…(Laughs)
Readers will roll their eyes and think ‘Oh, please’...
(Chuckles) I lead women by telling my story, by my
vulnerabilities, by my sharing the struggles I am having. If I’m having a
challenge with a family member and I’m finding it difficult to forgive
them, I will come and vent and say this is what I’m struggling with.
So I process my life as it’s unfolding. So at the
moment I can’t think of one thing I’m struggling with as a woman,
because… Gosh… I’ve come to accept myself 100 per cent. If I’m irritated
about something I will speak it out and say, ‘‘I’m not pleased about
this.’’
How do men relate to you?
They relate to me from a pedestal. They relate to
me from a space of, ‘This is the queen’. So the first thing is to
deconstruct that pedestal. To let them know that I am a woman and I am
human. So I come into the interaction as number one, human and number
two, a woman. So, if you don’t return my calls, I’m hitting the roof.
Please understand that.
Oh come on, you can’t be strong about that.
(Laughs) Oh, I won’t, but I will do it with
dignity. With class. If you push my boundaries, I push back. So it’s
about deconstructing the pedestal and getting them to see me. In fact,
when I meet a guy and I want to start dating them, I don’t like dating
them in a formal way. I like to meet them in informal spaces. Let’s go
to a children’s home, let’s take a walk somewhere.
No. But I am in a space where that for me is beginning to
matter. I’m giving it a lot of thought. I haven’t considered it before
by the way.
Why?
I had such a negative belief about men. I used to
say, “If your man is cheating, cheat on him twice. We can sit and I can
show you the strategies”. (Laughs).
So I needed a lot of healing myself and I needed a
lot of restoration to be able to see a man for who he is as opposed to
the men that he represents. When he comes into the picture, he comes as
him. Not as ‘‘Men in Africa’,’ ‘‘men are like this’’. So it’s only now
that I feel I’m in a very healthy space, I’m in a very secure space and
I’ve worked so much on my values that I’m thinking about what values I
can add to another human being as opposed to what they do for me.
What did it take for you to come to this space?
It’s been a journey and I’m still on it. I’m not
yet perfect. It’s taken a lot of acknowledgement. I acknowledged
everything that I believed that wasn’t right about men, acknowledged the
relationships I had been in, owning my part in ‘Why would I attract
that kind of a man’. It’s about that and just being able to do
self-interrogation and self-audit and all of that
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